Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Trapped !!

I live in a world
governed by reasoning & emotions,
I know not how they synergise,
I can see only corrosion.
For every decision to be made,
in my mind there is commotion,
Whether to trust reason or follow my heart ?
I have neither answers nor notions .

Both seem to be important,
Am often left desolate in ambivalence.
Just when the weight shifts towards one side,
Difference in perception brings back the balance.
I wish sometimes to be a program,
I could decide based on a fixed ordinance,
Decisions would be made quickly,
Dilemmas would have zero tolerance.

They tell me that i am free,
But irony has it that i live in a society.
They tell me how to live life the right way,
Then blame a mishap on destiny.
I wish i could break free and show the world,
That everything in it is a mere parody.
I wish that i could be born free as a simple child,
And then be the sole father of my destiny.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Nice words but, poet!, through my eyes you are totally free (you can fly wherever you want to!) and the one who controls your own destiny. This is what I have seen. And there is no doubt you trust reason and follow your heart mathematically. If 1% reason and 99% heart or 50%/50%, you tell me :)

I just know you're a very fair person. ALWAYS!!!

(Alana)

Tarun said...

good one...

and another factor is time...
do you wanna do you decide something based on how the results are in the short term or the long term..

like take a break now and relax watch some tv or drill over scarring yourself for the fruits of later.
will it actually be scarring or the social notion of growing up, doing something for later suffering now...

Matangi Mawley said...

They tell me how to live life the right way,
Then blame a mishap on destiny.
.............
so true!!
beautiful!

Anonymous said...

You have paraphrased the dilemma that i go thru everyday!!

For every decision to be made,
in my mind there is commotion,
Whether to trust reason or follow my heart ?
I have neither answers nor notions .


Awesome!

"They tell me that i am free,
But irony has it that i live in a society."


My thoughts in words!

--Shruti

Shiv said...

Is there anything like a perfect program? Theoritically, NO. Practically - No! What exists is, a program that gives you the best answer for most usable and practically feasible cases!

Actually, thats what separates us from programs. The fact that we can think, reason out (and justify our actions :D)

But while we crib about the duality that exists (as u beautifully put "Difference in perception brings back the balance"), I wonder if we'd prefer the sense of satisfaction that engulfs us, when we MAKE a decision or we'd been programmed to make a decision! :)

Shiv said...

Oh, abt the last stanza, I agree completely! :) A free society is as much bereft of logic as a perfect code! :D

Albeit, I still stand by the belief that I am the sole father of my destiny. If destiny lead me, then honestly, I would cease to live and be happy to just exist! :)

P.S. I loved the poem and would love to discuss this on the phone! :)

Anonymous said...

Hey Sid.. Been ages, hasn't it!

Well written ol' fella. The last four lines- simply true! A parody indeed... Man may be born free; yet, the social animal that he is...

Cheers... And chk out my page dude. Been updated, finally!

Anonymous said...

U noe whenever i start to read to sumthn of dis sort....as in about life and such things, I usually tend to get freaked out b4 even completing it. But dis particular writing of urs, believe it or not truly speaks my mind too..!! I really envy ur ability to think....n HOW MUCH u cn think..!! N even more ur ability to frame ur thoughts into words....!!

One of my fav quotes vich i think u wud like too...

"The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free, that your very existence is an act of rebellion."


Live Well..Ciao!!

Si_Lee said...

@ anonymous .. i wish you wud hv mntiooned ur name atleastr at my mail if not on the blog .. yes i do like that one .. why do u think my blog is titled aggravatingly contumacious yet serene

Si_Lee said...

@ annonymous..
continuing .. chee thanks i read ur comment like ten times .. thnx for the appreciation

Anonymous said...

well...frankly sayin...i find dis title.."ACYS" a bit contradicting in itself..!!

Si_Lee said...

@ anonymous ..
yes it is ... i can constantly rebel against this world and yet have my peace of mind .. :)
i wud really like a name or ur blog if u do .....

cypher said...

Am Sunit..!!